i'm feeling this now

2009-09-23T21:17:00.003+10:00

so this is it.

maybe it's sad,

maybe it's not.

what ever.

come visit me here instead.
imfeelingthisnow.tumblr.com

(see not all bad)

2009-09-21T22:04:00.007+10:00

i fucking miss you so much.

i just want to see you again.

2009-09-20T13:20:00.004+10:00

boom! boom! boom! boom!

2009-09-19T00:29:00.005+10:00

i dont know how

you can say she's weird looking.

i think she is mind blowingly stunning.

like a capital

WOW.

2009-09-17T23:40:00.004+10:00

thanks for my foto.

no one's gonna know.

2009-09-17T23:31:00.003+10:00

there's something that's making an earthquake in my heart.

and no it's not that.

it's someone far away.

too far for me to reach out and touch them.

my arms aren't long enough.

im thinking that these thought's are a little heavy for late hours on a thursday.

my brain and heart cant get their timing right.

but it's hurting.

i miss you.

oh god do i miss you.

you're everything i want to get to know,

you're adorable and you skate.

you're deep and light and

you reccomended me a rad comic.

i feel like i was cheated with the smidgen of time i had to get to know you.

let's remain in contact incase the day comes that my arms grow

mega long and i can reach all the way to canada,

and then pull the rest of myself over there too

so i can get one of you're life-mending hugs

and then i can stay there, for good.

2009-09-17T01:13:00.001+10:00

not long now goldilocks!

2009-09-17T00:50:00.003+10:00

woah.

i get to see you on saturday.

oh boy.

it's like, mega awesome n shit.

whew.

2009-09-12T21:37:00.003+10:00

today was 28 degrees.

so i ate ice-cream and drank beer in the sun.

ner. ner.

2009-08-29T01:00:00.007+10:00

bloop bloob.

another week.

doobie

doooooooooooodoo.Publish Post

2009-08-23T18:26:00.004+10:00

woo woo.

rad day at work (for once)

rad nite last nite;

rad peeps,

rad roller derby action,

really rad babes.

rad food with a rad lady friday nite.

man, what a rad weekend!

(forgetting that i got hit by a tram)

whew, any more rad-ness

and i think i'll explode.

oh wait, shit.

then there's this rad band

and their rad foto.

boom!

2009-08-19T20:14:00.001+10:00

i know this may seem obsessive,

but dang it's hot.

2009-08-17T19:23:00.001+10:00

i have a rad new job i have a rad new job i have a rad new job

2009-08-14T21:11:00.005+10:00

2009-08-14T21:02:00.004+10:00

will this all be over soon?

2009-08-08T22:23:00.002+10:00

i dont know you at all.

but i think i really like you.

is that ok?

(our friends will have no idea)

2009-08-08T21:55:00.002+10:00

lesbian forrest rangers.

eager beavers!

2009-08-08T21:47:00.006+10:00

the sky means endlessness

and up-wardness.

right?

2009-08-08T21:27:00.013+10:00

2009-08-07T23:00:00.001+10:00

.....

2009-08-02T18:24:00.009+10:00

things are a little clearer.

they were.

now they're not (again)

but it's ok, once you happened i knew it could get overcast.

and heaven knows i love storm clouds.

2009-08-02T18:17:00.006+10:00

shit n giggles.

2009-08-02T18:14:00.004+10:00

please?

2009-08-02T18:06:00.004+10:00

2009-07-28T21:18:00.005+10:00

ive gone and made

all these promises to myself.

like one of them is

early to bed all this week.

im gonna have to talk to myself

about my performance at set tasks.

but here's some randoms any way.

2009-07-28T21:13:00.006+10:00

i like hangin'

wid-choo.

2009-07-28T21:02:00.006+10:00

it was such an

awesome evening.

worth it's weight in gold.

2009-07-23T19:59:00.002+10:00

o.m.g.

season five.

remind me how to breathe again?

2009-07-22T23:06:00.003+10:00

two good things that i did

from an annoying crazy slow day.

2009-07-21T21:50:00.004+10:00

sometimes it just floods in.

it comes over me all warm and glittery.

makes me so far beyond happy.

and i cant explain it, other than it's exclusive.

not everyone on the planet is in this club.

and i like it that way.

and fuck i know i mite go on about it sometimes,

but its unstoppable when the thoughts of it meet my mouth.

they splatter out.

and when the people,

who make my day beautiful, hot, thoughtful and sexy,

come in,

the glittery feeling turns intergalactic.

and the only word that fits

(and shamelessly so)

starts with a 'p'.

2009-07-21T21:31:00.004+10:00

dear you,

after i watched you walk the long way round

(to avoid walking past us)

to (ew!) gloria jeans yesterday,

i thought to myself

"gasp! all is lost!

my world has come to an end.

how will i get through my working day with out looking at you?!"

i fully thought you were a lost cause.

but!

boy did you give me a shock today.

you made me blush harder than anyone this year.

and that smile?

melt me already.

so tomorrow,

im expecting you bright and early.

please come in,

encourage me

to have guilty thoughts about

you

for the rest of the day.

yours in lust,

me.

2009-07-21T21:20:00.007+10:00

(its not even worth a mention.

what you said. )

why?

cos im blissful.

im in my bubble and im staying here.

2009-07-19T21:31:00.006+10:00

hot alert.

2009-07-18T22:58:00.003+10:00

making,

making.

it never gets tired.

2009-07-18T22:36:00.010+10:00

dear you,

are you going to come back?

i promise i'll make your

'soy, organic fair trade blend, long macchiato, one sugar'

more amazing than you can imagine.

more than.

i wanna look at you, watch you.

it's boring otherwise.

you make my morning.

........

yours daily,

me x

2009-07-18T22:32:00.003+10:00

y'know?

it gets easier. almost like it was never hard in the first place.

who'd a thought?!

2009-07-18T22:20:00.010+10:00

more fone foto vomit.....

2009-07-14T19:10:00.019+10:00

foto vomit.

all jumbled like a sale.

blagghhhhh.....

2009-06-28T21:23:00.002+10:00

today is the begining.

from here on in, here i go.

2009-06-25T20:21:00.006+10:00

maybe i have the swine flu?

maybe i just havent had enough sleep?

maybe im grumpy and cant handle rude people.

maybe im missing hearts and struggling with a face-to-face life empty of them.

maybe im just being a poohead and need to get my shit sorted.

i wish i knew what to do.

im rich and listless.

not even $150 shoes can make me see the bright side of today.

2009-06-24T20:11:00.006+10:00

did you realise that we never

talked about what we were

meant to?

2009-06-23T20:32:00.010+10:00

i have fallen in love with a musical gift.

i was praised for being good at something,

im even getting a lapel pin to go with it.

my feelings have changed.

i dont think i like you anymore.

but i miss you, all the way up there.

come down here awhile, it'll do you good.

i really wanted to make this a good post,

but i can only manage dot-point things.

2009-06-21T20:21:00.001+10:00

ladyface..........

2009-06-21T18:10:00.004+10:00

im still.

im acting brave.

im confused that this has started again so soon.

i think that the best thing to do is pretend it's not there,

that way it can sit at the back and grow bigger and bigger,

and turn into the problem it was always meant to be.

though,

i think problem is the wrong word.

but im too scared to use the word i really want to use.

lets leave it at this,

at least ive only half-way dug my grave.

2009-06-19T18:20:00.000+10:00

see what i mean?

2009-06-19T18:15:00.001+10:00

woah. woah. woah.

what have you done?

what do i do now?!

oh god.

here we go......

2009-06-19T18:00:00.011+10:00

so like yesterday was totes the bomb yo.

bring on space club!

2009-06-16T21:43:00.003+10:00

i love my new vans with the galaxies on the sides.

i love having this thursday off.

i lcve that im making stella coffee n shit.

i love telepathe and dizzee rascal.

and i love that my fone camera finds these colours.

what an ace day yo.

2009-06-15T18:16:00.004+10:00

today was like every other day.

i got up, i blundered around, i made lots of coffees for strangers, i thought about things

and i day dreamed as much as humanly possible.

but then it kinda wasnt. it went a little weird around 1pm.

it started, you started.

you flooded my day dreams.

no you keep flooding my day dreams.

you're drowning me and i dont even know you.

i will never know you.

and that's not fair.

it's what eats me up.

self-created acid.

one day, i hope to leave this head of mine,

even just for a walk around a boring calm garden (like the ones at hospitals),

just to know what it feels like to be detatched from my overly imaginative feelings.

just for an hour or two.

thats all.

but back to me drowning in you.

you.

(sometimes i feel like i over use that word.

but it's like a magnet;

its the north pole and i am it's south.)

but the you i am swimming in.

swimming like i have no cares,

you take my mind away,

but yet you bomb it right back reality.

and this is where the tough part starts.

i dont know you,

how could i ever know you when you

live in the biggest city of all.

i think ive given too much away.

(but for what? the fear that someone mite think im a weirdo?)

all i know is that i wont be able to help myself in my day dreams.

you'll waltz in and i'll go limp.

the end.

that's me, done.

be nice and let me know you know me.

for real.

2009-06-15T18:11:00.005+10:00

my obsession with the big roofless sky

is creeping up on me again.
i wonder why?

2009-06-14T23:07:00.001+10:00

h.o.t.

2009-06-13T13:17:00.007+10:00

saturday morning.
coffee with a hottie
and a trip to the stupermarket.

on the way home,
i decided that i wouldnt change
anything,
not for the world.

2009-06-11T21:13:00.002+10:00

ow.

i missed your call.

it made me

miss you harder.

2009-06-11T19:12:00.004+10:00

every time i walk past this house in my street,

i look up because this black mass in the tree

grabs my eyes and pulls them towards it.

im always fooled into thinking it's a family of fruit bats.

but its a plastic bag.

(but i prefer to think that it's the bats...)

2009-06-09T17:20:00.004+10:00

today is the best weather.

that kind of weather that urges me to put on

all my favourite music and stay out in the rain

longer than i should.

if im honest with myself,

im on track,i just have to remember little goals.

but im seriously getting there!

even though i know there's things missing,

it's not the time, and im ok with that.

and every now and then i feel like making the effort,

and i think that's the bomb.

i think of what i used to miss and long for,

and how all the little reminders that happen everyday

mean shit.

it lifts my heavy boots that much closer to the heavens.

2009-06-08T18:54:00.002+10:00

i think you know....

2009-06-07T21:05:00.002+10:00

fool my heart,

to think that,

i mite have had you.

2009-06-06T21:19:00.002+10:00

i miss you, you know?

and ive been thinking,

about our futures.

wanna make them together?

you and me, partners?

the feeling in my tummy makes me think

it would be magic.

2009-06-06T21:13:00.006+10:00

we had a sweet-arse day huh?

2009-06-02T17:18:00.003+10:00

my wrists hurt from too much tamping,

i suprise myself at how easy it is to be awake at 5:30am,

and how ok things are going.

now there's new tricks and new feelings.

and you've been replaced by another.

they're way better (kind of.)

and im sure you'd all be suprised at who it is.

(and who is wasnt.)

they sing magic words and it's all for me.

i bet you have no-i-dea.

and you know i dont want you to.

2009-06-02T17:15:00.003+10:00

par-tay people.

2009-06-02T17:02:00.011+10:00

my walk to the train at 6:30 in the morning.

it is magical.

2009-05-21T17:07:00.000+10:00

i wish i was this guy.
he's all tuff-muff and cool.
(see tattoos on arms.)
and that's what i want,
more tattoos,
and maybe a tuff-muff.
(haha)

2009-05-19T17:40:00.002+10:00

im tried now.

2009-05-19T17:33:00.006+10:00

2009-05-19T17:23:00.009+10:00

2009-05-11T17:19:00.000+10:00

plodding along. uh huh.

2009-05-11T17:12:00.011+10:00

2009-05-11T17:08:00.005+10:00

2009-05-04T17:44:00.000+10:00

i am going here.

2009-05-02T11:45:00.013+10:00

fun fun fun.

2009-04-23T19:23:00.001+10:00

you're all i can think about.

2009-04-23T19:19:00.006+10:00

and holga part tw0.

2009-04-23T19:03:00.018+10:00

holga part one

2009-04-23T18:52:00.004+10:00

it's good to be back.

2009-04-23T18:31:00.019+10:00

party, party.

2009-04-14T18:53:00.002+10:00

this broken window is hot as hell.
so is this site.

2009-04-13T01:54:00.004+10:00

i feel all weird.
like im inside a bubble and there's this "thing"
that makes everything funny. it feels like im in a never ending laugh-a-thon.
im not even on drugs.
is this what people call...."happiness"?
i can even listen to music that i couldnt before
because of a heart-break i never told anyone about,
but had still managed to attatch music too.
now i think my hearts kinda almost on the up.
im gross positive now. ew.
nah, lets get realistic.
i think i just feel a bit better, after some news, a new fulltime job, and
a few new (and old) crushes
to buzz around in my head.
still.
one of you are straight and the other has the wrong bits.
but hey, i can still think about you,
i just dont think about those parts.

2009-04-13T00:55:00.005+10:00

check this site out.
( a softer world )
i bet you'll wish you'd
thought of doing this
kind of thing first.

2009-04-13T00:42:00.005+10:00

yeah im a cat-person.
so what.
she's awesome.
so am i.
(sometimes)

2009-04-13T00:08:00.016+10:00

tasmania at my parents house.
it's good to be home for a bit.
hangin' with the trees n' animals.
gettin' back to nature yo.

2009-04-12T23:44:00.017+10:00

drunk.
party party.
drunk.
a bag run away.
bit of a boogie.
drunk-er.
stranded in suburbia.
weirdly avoiding a train fine
(i guess i looked pretty shit at 7:30am.)
but i think the guy was in a good mood
cos he knew that if he let me off,
he'd get more easter eggs.

2009-04-12T23:22:00.004+10:00

coffee with boner.
woo wee.

2009-04-12T23:13:00.008+10:00

an amazing house with an amazing lady livin' in it.
jealousy fills me every time i step foot in her flat.
b.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l.

2009-04-09T20:51:00.004+10:00

so now that i am jobless,

i find myself with shitloads of free time.

to think about things,

dream about you,

think about how shit it is that you're not on the same "team" as me.

i figure that i think too much.

but i like thinking about you.

and, up until now in blog-land,

no one knew i was thinking about you.

no one was meant to know.

(i think i have it in for myself.)

2009-04-09T20:47:00.007+10:00

i swear mr. moon was following me tonite.

too big to mention.

2009-04-07T12:17:00.000+10:00

this is today. outside. and in my tummy.

2009-04-05T10:46:00.002+10:00

hot or what?!

2009-04-05T10:32:00.001+10:00

nitelite

2009-04-05T10:24:00.003+10:00

this is kevin (it's on his name tag)

he comes over from next door, wanders upstairs

to my room and makes sexy poses on my bed.

then he gets a wee pat, gives me a hard bite

then leaves.

2009-04-05T10:03:00.005+10:00

ive found new things to do these days.

these days where im redundant at 24.

haha.

but! things to look forward to are as follows:

cooler weather - means cool winter clothes.

crisp cold days - but you still get to wear sunglasses
thanks to the damn australian sun.

new tricks on my ipod.

new pens and paper.

making an art baby.

potential moments with old friends that are in my country soon.

see kids, nothing to worry about.
im getting so good at throwing it out, that i should get a big trophy.
oh muthafucka.

2009-04-05T10:00:00.002+10:00

holga baby!

2009-03-31T10:41:00.005+11:00

bubble bubble

2009-03-27T11:24:00.007+11:00

left overs.

2009-03-27T11:21:00.002+11:00

sore tooth today.

2009-03-24T10:56:00.004+11:00

2009-03-20T17:01:00.004+11:00

best day for a while now...

2009-03-20T11:38:00.008+11:00

art making and making.
watching weirdos play weirdo music.
missing people and times.
come back to me you lot.
now.

2009-03-13T12:35:00.006+11:00

happy birthday to me...

2009-03-10T12:53:00.002+11:00

im not sure it's ok.