Sunday, 30 December 2007

it says it all in a way.

happy new years bubelah.

i found this on a blog i read,

it's by the good machinery, dessa.

Thursday, 20 December 2007

im going home today.
i am going to recuperate and find things.
and when i come back,
i am going to be better.

Wednesday, 19 December 2007

it looks like i have to get through this alone.


(either it's inappropriate or
they're going to wait
until they see me.)

that is bullshit.

Tuesday, 18 December 2007

im not going to write what i really want to write,


..that would rip my heart out.

Monday, 17 December 2007

i cried

and cried and cried last nite.
i cried because, when im quiet, when im still,
i get scared.

...because, thats when my thoughts run in,
they run in at break-neck-speed.

and sometimes,

there's things im scared to say.


"i miss you,
i wish you were here,
i wish this didnt have to be so shit."

Friday, 14 December 2007

i want to let go.
this is me letting go.
this is me,
without you.

i cried into my sleep last nite.

i suddenly remembered the name i used to call you.

i'm guessing that's what started it.

Thursday, 13 December 2007

i feel better today.

Monday, 10 December 2007

Sunday, 9 December 2007

Friday, 7 December 2007

you said it was time for us to be serious about this.

Thursday, 6 December 2007

mixed tape for you:

i'm starting to get lonely.

only because my body doesn't recognize that you're no longer there.

not yet anyway.