who wants a kiss?

you're both right next to me and are practically having sex.

i loath the both of you. especially you.

today has been good.
thankgod.

so we went on a road trip to stirling. and all the tourist attractions were free beacuse it was "visit scotland" weekend.
it was really really nice.


but now im looking at having to go home and i must confess im rather uneasy about it. i love edinburgh, and i just dont want to leave. i have two days off to sit and think about it, try and imagine my life without all the great people i met here. i dont want to, it makes my head sore.

i love this woman.

so i feel miserable.
just plain old grey-stockings miserable.
it doesnt help that the day's grey, and everyone else is grey.

i wish i could get a sheet and turn myself into a ghost. that way i'd be invisible and no one would know i was around.
rite now i think i'd prefer it, i dont want people starring at me because they think coffee is super fast and that i am a hindu god with a gazillion arms, i dont want people thinking im well pissed at them when actually it's either my bloody damn resting face or im stressed about things the size of the planet and they're not even on it, and i especially want to be invisible from you, but i think i already am. (ok ok, i know that's harsh but i will be soon and it makes me cry.)

so im going to go home, find a sheet and forget to cut eye holes until i have to leave to go serve twat-suit-wanker people coffee they wont even appreciate.

hoo. ray.

he will be mine one day.
and we will live in happy monster heaven.
amen.