i just want to go there now.
scottish cold just isnt enough.
i want all the snow to blot out the memory-bit in my brain.
i want to not be able to access the part in my brain that this year is stored in.

but i am also looking forward to feeling all safe and fun when i get home.
because you're all there and it's been too long.
i think it's going to be worth more than diamonds and gold (and i cant wait).

i love this girls work so much right now...

ok so, im gonna pretend like this never happened.
and hopefully in a few months it will have developed into a no-where memory,
almost like it never happened.
just because ok?

here's why i miss home sometimes..
(mount wellington, hobart tasmania. image credit.. i kinda stole it from facebook, it was one of bits of a broken something's friends fotos...sorry!)

i just want to go home now.

over the last few days.

hummm um.....
i got my ticket home today.
i leave london on the 27th of november probably never to come back for a long time.
and i think it's good. i want to leave, i think it'll be good if i leave.
for so many stupid reasons.
and secretly i cant wait.
there's so many new opportunities when i get home.
so many new things.

so like i cut my hair last nite.
i chopped all my hard work off.
i think i may have grown some,
because im not too bothered that it's a short-ish bob thing.

ive felt really introverted these last few days.
im going to the travel agent to look at flights home.
maybe that's why im so inside my head,
the loomingness of going home.

i cant wait to see him.

it was sunny today, all day.
i think it made the day go faster.
im waiting on friday....
i think i mite be super bad and treat myself to another tattoo.
just a tiny one, y'know, to even things out.
a bit.
speaking of tattoos,
im well excited that bits of a broken something is designing my big one!
it is going to be so so lovely...

i feel weird today. ive not heard a whisper and im trying to convince myself that i will be ok when i finally have to leave.
i want everything to be in the one place,
i want you all to be in the one place,
i dont ever want to have to miss a single soul.
not anymore, it's too hard.
i wish rimsky would rescue me, take me where there's snow.
i wish i could feel safer about things.
i wish i didnt have to wish so much.

oh! and him too!

what a hottie!

and i love her too...

some of my accumulating polaroids. my favrouite ones anyway.
(but the dark one isnt a polaroid, it was taken while i was waiting for you. and yes, i am glad of the break. )

i love him.

COUGAR FLASHY

had a really great day yesterday.
the light was just right
and we were wearing our birdseed shirts.