im still.

im acting brave.

im confused that this has started again so soon.

i think that the best thing to do is pretend it's not there,

that way it can sit at the back and grow bigger and bigger,

and turn into the problem it was always meant to be.

though,

i think problem is the wrong word.

but im too scared to use the word i really want to use.

lets leave it at this,

at least ive only half-way dug my grave.